Merry Christ - mas to those of you alone.

I pressed enter instead of tab.
ba, that seems to be the new a instead of s or vice versa
bullshit tecno fab land culture.
'I've got my blog spot'
'I've got my keyborad'
both to be sung to the tune of Wezzer's
'I've got my hash pipe'
Now dance to the guitar part...
or not.

Ba...

I wrote this poem that I was all excited to post but now am having second thoughts...

to post or not to post..

Okay I'll post but imagine me slamming this instead of it being all poetry
and sad.
Cause I'm a performance poet not a poet.

no tittle yet.

I felt your package like I was gropping your hand
for my favorite finger to hold.

I held it clouse to my heart

it had felt you just days ago.

I myself haven't felf your chubby caluses in a
year and a bit.

I thought this would be easy,

giving and reciving

another consumer bliss day alone.

I don't wanna miss you more today!!!

but i can't help it.

Tears flow as I am remined of the safty of your presents...
You told me to take care of myself
I don't want to fail you but

I've forgotten whats healthy.

I'm not a little kid any more
haven't been for awhile

but still deep in my heart i want nothing more then
to remain your little girl
perfect
without all these years of
smoking
non manogamy
and age.

Pull myself togethere
I'm over this
this was years ago

grow thru past pain

whiskey isn't food
and ciggarretes aren't vegtables

the end.

It's a little emotional, i can't help it
it's the holidays my family is all over the world and divorsed
or are married to some cousin on the othere side of my family
but no one is talking to anyon eles
but again if they are talking they're on the other side of the world.
thats what happens when everyone in your family is:
a) from Saskatchwan
b)in the military
c)warrent out for they're arrest
d)in the film industry
e)didn't make it past grade six

hahhahahahahahahahah

it feels good to laugh.
thanks
this is one of many off the wall x- mas bloggs
cheers to all of you I will miss over these
consumer bliss days
julie.

p.s
i tryed to spell check this one and my computer won't let me.
haha, merry holidays spelling pro's.