drinking alone

I'm drinking alone and smoking a lot.
I was so desprite to talk to someone who knew me
i called my mom!!!
She thinks I'm just feeling the wear and tear of the winter
but mum i replied it's only minus 30...
right I get it now.
If this was the summer, I just go for a long walk
by myself with a bottle of something hard and a joint.
but it's winter

so here i am...

I went to the dollar store today to buy a lighter the only ones avalible were weed leaves or 'sexy' ladies
i choose the 'sexy' ladies, thank you very much.
blah


I'm feeling really disconnected to the people closest to me
I wish this was a new feeling
then i wouldn't care
but here it is hovering over me
(i will now thank you all for reading)
thank you.

Alone in a studio with no energy left to
create
yahooo!
julie