here iam

I wish i had more to say.
things have been remarcably calm.
Monday is the day I start the job hunt, no promises ièll make it to first pay check befor i have to borrow money.
Money goes so fast here. I took out forty dollars thinking that it would last longer the an hour, hahahaha joke was on me.
all the food smells so good itès hard not to snack all the time.
Oh the shin splints are finally not throbing when i wake up.
On my third day here mike took me on a walking tour, after drinking with my new roommate for a few hour we then decided to jog, it felt good at the time.

Iève been spending the last few nights with my friend joèe, she is a great girl. truthfully i don;t think i could have done this move without her we fit togethere like two french girls should. we spent friday night drinking wine on her balcony catching up and yaking about boys then passed out to sex in the city. a dream come true.
As for the job there are lots here. ièm hoping to get a job supporting drug addicts but if that dosenèt happen then ièll get a job working at a market. My rent is only $430 and food is really cheap, i got six on the vine organic tomatoes for $1.60, holly fuck eh.

Itès my turn to shower then i think ièll go see mike, charge my phone and drink some of his whiskey. Ièll start being responcible tommorrow. honestly i was so busy in wpg befor i let i needed this week off.

Tool was great i was so clouse i culd stare at maynor the whoe time, but that guitar player (i thought he was a women for the first bit, as i really need glasses now, my eyes are not healng themselves as i had hoped)they played anima (learn to swin, fuck i think i came in my pants no hands needed)
lots of love julie

the move

here I am standing at a free computer in the van libray,
they don't give you chairs I suppose it's to make you act faster.
the bus ride down was long but a well needed rest, I keep forgeting that I live here now and i need to pay attention to streets and lay out , I am not a tourist I am not a tourist.
Tool was okay, I have to addmitt I enjoyed thier last show more, they sound tired
board like they no longer need to try to play there for they no longer need to be in the now for everything to 'come togethere'.My seats were awsome though and I can finally say I saw tool not just heard them really loud while watching dots move.
The weather is milded though 20 here isn't all that warm cause you have the wind blowing off the ocean.
hmmmmm, i ran into an old lover after the show last night he was here just for one more night, the things we coulda done. instead we watched the water and talked about a future that may never come. boys your all so cute I can't hep but feel over whelmed most days.
Mike and I have already gotten really drunk, I was walking down davie with no shirt or bra on the looks i got were great, some guy yelled 'hey you , grow some tits' still makes me laugh, cause ya I choose my tit size!
Miss y'all and the security of knowing were I am and where I'm going. I left Alex's apartment to go get mike and had to call alex the second i step outside his door for more directions. Amiee i always relayed on her.
Tata for now I'm changing my number todayish, I'll let you know. lots of love julie

me now

I'm moving,
the words seem to echo
or is it just me?
I have no idea what I'm doing
but i know where I'm going.

It feels wierd
I'm packing and I'm not moving down the street or going on a trip.
I'm doing both, both sets of rules aply, do you really need this, have you used it in the last six months, can you carry it?

the goodbyes
fuck they make my stomach turn and my food crawl up.
I hate goodbyes I'm no good at them i cry.
Moments and journies.
i miss you already.

can you promise you'll come see me?