I started going to www.facade.com and doing some daily tarrot card readings.
The following is a line from my i ching reading today:

The present is embodied in Hexagram 19 - Lin (Approach): There will be great progress and success, while it will be advantageous to be firmly correct. In the eighth month there will be evil

My card reading today also gave warning to some unforseen bad luck, don't count your chickens before they hatch. The vodoo magic is gaining force in this heat wave commonly knowen as...
summer.

It's a good sight for free readings of almost any kind, if your into that kinda thing.
cheers j.

Just another night at the Nook

and he says off the gride and I'm thinkin'
no computer and cell phone and no bank card.
that for me is off the gride,
he then procceds with some lenght and factual tid bits.
I clench on the inside
piecing together all the pipes and hot water
coils.
that make up a solar panle.

dreams growen in the hearts of lovers
take flight in absents (and whiskey).

I want to remind him, but he sparkles
and the dream feeds this so
i don't.

searching

I'm searching for a sence of peace.
I've tryed a few things mostly booze drugs and men,
needless to say they quench little and as of late just seem to add to my anxiety.

I have a hard time sitting still
I'm in a constant flux of pointless action,
working only to sadisfy my needs,
which aren't as numoroues as they once were.

Perhaps thats the start I needed.
Content to sit still surrounded by my own
filth and good will belongings.

mastrbating to images of objects
houses with gardens
right angles and soft serve.
I find them to be more constant,
more fufilling then a one night stand with a lover who claims to know and love.

Please don't claim to know or love,
it only insults me in times of transition.


Heart bare, lungs full and stomache still eating last nights meal
I smeer grease on my face and jump naked onto my porch
screaming nothing autable,
the neibors are sleeping and the roomates indifferent
I go back to sitting in my filth and cheap belongings
with a new face.

May we all have things to find.