things I need to say this week

My intuition is getting the better of me.
I saw your name my heart stopped then started up
one hundred times faster.
I haven't spoken to you in six months
why now?
my heartless responce being my only sheild.
Covered to you I am
Your not allowed to
remember me
think about me
email me
phone me
the only thing your allowed to do is
fucking give me my money back.
JUST INCASE YOU STILL READ THIS,
THAT WAS A REMINDER.

As for the other you.
It's over.
Find the voice to tell you
will be my next task.
I can't do this anymore
I too emotion for your cold wall.
dance by myself
i'm going bach to, thanks though.

fuck i can't do much right
but i can always make another
choise.
j

hey hi cheers

please let me do this
thanks for the upper.

Just the girl
with the stash.

Or not.
can I be me with out
giving all the time?

what do I give
how do you take?

Maybe I should start belieiving in money.
in this consumer bliss
crap.
But it's not all crap
JUlie
not all of it is crap,
just
the most obvious.

whispers the voice
sitting on my left/right

(hey Alex
hey April)

dance to this rythem
I'll try
just for the next bit
then I'm throw.
just so your aware
no surprises.
julie

thanks

thanks for putting up wiht me
i say to the wind
and post on my blogg
julie

friday the 13 and what looks like a full moon

so a few days a go
I told a good friend of mine
' hey I like don't care what happens cause I'm an adult
and I 'm aware of my choises
and I wanna experience jealousey
now I'm not quit ready.
fuck i wanna exceed
emotion.


fuck we're
we're
we're

gonna start an opulence night
I'm gonna blow my something something speaker
but i don't care...
and it gets this to here it go to...
www.tedmayerart.com
hit the abstract and video's
find the 'ted's new bass' video.
we're busy
us art lords
though we're not new
as i have been informed...
I have no right to post ant addreses cause i am part of a collective
and to post an address i need to have a meeting.

In case your wondering how I the writer feels
just re-read 'fuck you'
my stomache feels
like it should purge.
love I should not forget how to feel I must.
constant reminder to myself I am.
yoda said once.
hi andy.
go next store I'm afraid to.

the space I didn't know you filled

This ones about you.
The you who sits there reading this comfortably
knowing that it's not about you
well it's your turn.
Looked for you by my side I did
all night
leaning clouse to make a joke
I know will make you laugh
Smiled lips met only by the
blank space on all sides of me.
Clenched my phone in my hand
and begged it to tell me you had called
when you hadn't I pleaded with it to turn back time.
'Make it earlier, Vancouver time in Winnipeg, please'
"No"said the Gods "this time you must experience without the comforte that comes from knowing."
'Dance on stage and forget then I will'
"Good choise."
Anyway I need a date for tommorrow night, any takers?
julie

weeks worth of writing

We've set up an old G3 mac in my living room.
Have you seen the new G5's, holly shit,
I had no idea tecnology was moving that quickly.
I thought I'd post some short little poemetts I've been
muttering over this week. There never as good as you think
there going to be while your writing them oh well.

Charlie's birthday the Toad 2006
Double fisting and kissing
Moosehead bottles clenched
under arms made of fillet Minone
(bacon wrapped steak)

#2
Hey sista it's a balence on your knees
inbetween
befor and after
flame and coughing.

#3
Is this micus build-up
or
a mass released.
drug indused
or
virus infused?

Kiddies or yearly holiday habbits?

Besides the point of blame
beyond placement and reason...
I need to drink more water.

#4
Vastly the chararter stared into the void
called time and space,
Equalling the visual pleasures of the red light
and soft orange furnishings.

end
Thats my week in small poems.
have a good one on me , Julie