Mod night or Fashine Parade?

Do young people go out to be seen in their posh outfits
or to listen to or/and enjoy music?
It's like if I get dressed up to go out I feel like
I'm asking people to look at me
Why can't I just watch and listen unobserved like at home on the t.v.?
Why do people keep coming up to me?
Can't they see I'm watching, trying to be alone?
I Want to be alone.
Today I don't need you to be my sheild
I can go out on my own (damn-it).
Well, when I say alone I really mean clutching my cell phone deep in my jacket pocket
like an electric secirity blanket,
set on vibrate,
eyes glance towards blue screen just to make sure
I haven't missed
a call
your call
their call
last call
I feel thier eyes watching, judging
I know, because mine do the same.
Flicker flicker switch
brain must think in constructive patterens from here on in.
I remind myself for the nth time today.
Gin gin
good thoughts can contain gin
doubles
singles
straight
iced
limed
peeled
olived.

by julie and scott

he's back

I could feel it in the air today.
A whisper in my mind,
I told myself I was wrong
that it couldn't be true,
I haven't been clouse to him in years
how could I still sence him?

Then he walked into a crowed room
we stood to clouse and started where we left off
know where.
your timing is typical,
I just finished flushing one out of my brain
fill the space again I don't want to
try not to I will.
end
old lover really old lover
just came back
he once defined God to me
I couldn't hear his words instead
I just felt them,
later I asked him to tell me again and he refused
slightly offended by my lack of memory.
Our relationship started while I was balencing two othere people,
I read him some of my erotica, he asked me if he lick my face.
Weird ah?
Just the way I like them.
thanks for listening,
j.

Can I make a recomondation?

Have an afternoon pot luck
on a saturday,
three bottles of wine a bit of beer
(there are always thoughs people who only bring booze to
pot lucks).
And Enjoy.
my real recomondation here is this new Cananadain wine
it's called Naked it's un oaked
both the white and the red are
tasty, the white being so fruity and clean it inspired me to
blog this, not lonly drunkeness!
score one,
(inches).
j

Being here now.

It's over and just begining
again.
The cycle of rebirth
takes me to new,
yet there seems to be
constants that
remain steady,
in these times of change.

Labling would be redundent,
explaining to much like complaning
mystiphying just covered manipulating.

Must move forward now.

you, or me 15 yrs.from now

you touch me tonight
both physicaly and mentally
remember neither
I know you'll do.
I end up in a state
where I'm wanting
to hurt someone
touch someone the
the way you did me.

But you'll never know
unless I bookmark this ans hope to God your moving this
old ImB with you.





your not I'm sure I use to give you two hours to wake up...
fuck your right here
to drunk to know better.
fuck
i love you.
end
the end
sorry about this piece
i'm in a werid spot with nothing but
cable
a passed out old lover
lots oh smokes
whiskey
internet
weed
home made
cheif food
a great bike waiting for me
your body...
j

Violence and blood
there is lots of it out there.